|As of now, this xanga is officially over. I'll be using my other one, sondosia. This is mostly because I've finally decided that I have WAY grown out of the stupid screen name I picked for myself years and years ago, and calling myself "shrewdcat" is like calling myself "hotchikkk863" or "sexayblonde23". In other words, it really isn't me.|
So, I'll spell that out in big letters for you.
I'll be subscribing to y'all from there.
And there is weird stuff there (e.g. poetry) that I'm not getting rid of, and I don't know whether to keep posting it there or not.
Anyways, this xanga will still exist as a testament to times past...I just won't post here anymore.
Even though it doesn't mean anything, I think Sondosia really describes me for some reason.
|The influence of music can be SO damn overpowering. You listen to seconds of a song, and you're teleported back to a different time...|
I don't get it. How is it that music captures these things about life which you can never put into words, the "feel" of a time in your life? It's not any of the senses, and it's not even an emotion or thought. It's just the way that time feels to you.
That experience is so important to me because I like to relive the past. And when I do, music brings back what my memory can't possibly store.
Tonight, for some reason, this takes an even greater precedence. That influence of the music I'm listening to is so strong that I wonder if I'm going to fall asleep tonight and really wake up months back in time, in 2005, when things were so different.
In a few months, I'll be remembering the start of the weirdest summer of my life that way. What feeling will it have? Which song will make me relive the last day of school, or my lonelines that first week, or how I relearned how to love summer? Years and years from now, which song will represent my entire adolescence? Which song will symbolize my whole life?
|I am so stupid...So I went to bed after 3 last night, and I'm trying to fall asleep and thinking about band, when suddenly I realize that I do not recall having turned in my point sheet, an I'm suddenly wide-awake going OMG!!!! Finally, I convinced myself that since I had already gotten a report card and it was a good one, it doesn't really matter whether I turned it in or not. I do weird stuff like that so much...|
I just had a weird desire to go to college, right now. Yeah, right. High school ends and I'll be bawling my eyes out.
Hell, one year of it ends and I still cry my eyes out.
Now, I have a question to ask y'all. Who here has actually gotten beyond the first chapter of our English project? You deserve a medal, people. I can't even finish the damn chapter because it is simply the most BORING BOOK I HAVE EVER TRIED TO READ.
*edit* The Notebook is an awesome movie...
I definetly shouldn't try rating movies based on if they make me cry or not since almost all movies do, but this was still one of the more moving ones.
Me: I'm watching The Notebook.
My mom: Is that about a LAPTOP?!
|I just recently got back from the pool...ya...|
I'm so glad Ian's having a party, or else I'd literally die...well maybe not literally, but you get the point. I haven't been to a party since...er, two weeks ago. ANYWAYS
Heather slept over last night, and it was lots of fun. Of course she had to go and ask random guys out over IM... *cough*
Y'know, I thought that I thought too much during school, but it's even worse now. I've gone way out of my mind by now. Maybe it's a good thing, because I'm finding this summer not boring in the least. Just a bit...lonely.
|Holy shit, I've just installed my 8th browser on this computer. Now I've got IE, Netscape 7, Netscape 8, AOL Browser, Firefox, Maxthon, Flock, and Opera. This is either extremely nerdy, extremely stupid, or both. |
OH YEAH!! I also had a 3D browser that I forget the name of because it sucked and I got rid of it. Actually, I think I might have gotten rid of the Netscapes too.
Yesterday evening, for the first time in months, I actually had fun with my family. We went to the pool and I realized how much I love splashing around like a kid...haha.
I'm proud to say that last night I went to bed at 2 and got up at noon...How am I EVER gonna survive when school starts?